Lumapit Ka Sa Akin...

'Wag kang madadapa
'Wag kang mahuhulog
'Wag kang mawawala
'Wag kang matutulog

Lumapit ka sa akin
Lumapit ka sa akin
Lumapit ka sa akin
Lumapit ka sa akin

Tumanaw ka sa daan
Lumingon ka sa likod
Ipunin ang yong tapang
Saka ka tumalon

Ikaw ang bibitaw,
Ikaw ang sasalo
Pagka't ikaw din ang aahon
Sa dagat ng gulo

Ikaw ang syang landas
Oh 'wag kang madudulas
Maghihintay ako
Uh-oh

Lumapit ka sa akin
Lumapit ka sa akin
Lumapit ka sa akin
Lumapit ka sa akin

Naliligaw ka ba?
Nalilito-lito?
Hindi ka ba kontento
Sa buhay mong bato?

Mapalad ka pa ba?
Sa tadhanang hawak mo
Hawiin mo ang kwento
Iguhit ang sayo

Hawiin mo ang usok
ng pagkakabigo
Andito lang ako (andito lang ako)
Uh-oh

Lumapit ka sa akin
Lumapit ka sa akin
Lumapit ka sa akin
Lumapit ka sa akin

'Wag kang padudulas
'Wag kang padadapa
'Wag kang pahuhulog
'Wag kang madadapa

Lumapit ka sa akin ('Wag kang mahuhulog)
Lumapit ka sa akin ('Wag kang mawawala)
Lumapit ka sa akin ('Wag kang matutulog)
Lumapit ka sa akin ('Wag kang madadapa)

Lumapit ka sa akin ('Wag kang mahuhulog)
Lumapit ka sa akin ('Wag kang mawawala)
Lumapit ka sa akin ('Wag kang matutulog)
Lumapit

Random Past Activities

Just after beating the dealine, I got sick... And for quite sometime I've been addicted to the scent of eucalyptus... Yeah! The minty scent relieves my breathing and been depending on it a lot. hmmmm...ahhhhh....

Later:

Just finished my new creation...hahaha... This is my new monster, just sewed them with my bare hands so that I will be able to give it as a gift to my eccentric friend. Remember who he is? Hmm,. Nevermind... Actually, it is really not for him, but for NED, so that he'll have someone to be with... you know.. everyone needs a company and so are monsters... LOL! However, rightnow, I'm kinda making some moves to stay away from him. Sigh... I'd tell the reason to this one soon... just not rightnow.

Previous:

Went to visit my next project, somewhere in Cavite... The weather last thursday aint that good, obviously. But, then I had to go there. And somehow I messed up,. hehehe... Crap! Poor Chucks!

I Miss My Monster...

After all...

I've realized that he's still my dear monster...

I miss him so much...

and

I wish him back...

Monster Madness

While I was busy doing a lot of stuffs last night, ( cleaning clutters in my room, finishing the scrap book, etc.) My dear MONSTER buzz me in at ym so we had a little chit chat. Its been a while since the last time we've talked. Hmm, I think the last time is when he was sick, unfortunately... he's still not well...SIGH...

Well, I admit that I've missed him that much that's why I took my time off doing my chores. hehehe... The conversation went good and ofcourse, there are some arguments as well. It's part of it anyway. Then, the topic went over the monster doll that I had on my friendster account. He thought that it was mine and he says it was nice. Hmm, well I told him that its not really mine and I just grab the photo from the net. I know, I kinda disappoint him again with that though he doesn't admit it. Actually, I'm really planning to buy one but as of now, I can't find the perfect monster for myself. When I told him the story behind that,he asked me why not make my own. Duh!

We ended the conversation on the net after a couple of minutes. I told him that I miss having that kind of conversation. He asked me to call him once he was done.I would really love to call him, though I refuse and delivered a lot of excuses. I find a little awkward to call him while he was still in the streets but he told it ain't a big deal. I really want to call, but I just don't wanna intrude him in anything that he's into. I really don't know why I keep obeying everything that he says. He instructs me to call him 5mins after he logged out.

It's around 11:35pm I guess,.. when we finally talked over the phone. Hmm, no doubt, he is still sick. It was very obvious in his voice but a lot better than the last time. Gee! I really miss that MONSTER... I don't why there's a part of me that make me stick with him. And yet the other half really wants him out of my crooked mind. I had a great time talking to him last night though he's been coughing most of time. SIGH... He told me that he was reading one of Haruki's novel,.. the Norwegian Wood. I haven't read any of Haruki's books, but I've heard of The Wind Up Bird Chronicle. That MONSTER really amuses me everytime. And that what makes me hate myself more. His battery got low that's why the talk have ended without saying any goodbyes and goodnights. Well, anyway, that's how things should be. After all I should never make any wrong moves this time. I would rather keep things as it as and not to make stuffs complicated.

The good thing is, he gave me very good idea about the monster doll. I guess it would be a lot better if I will make my own. Sounds like I have a new project to make or another hell to deal with this coming year. Hehehe... Now I need to bring on the needles and threads as well as all the scraps...

Wake Me Up When DECEMBER Ends

PRESENT:

>Whew! Its been a while... who would have thought that 2008 will be ending so soon. SIGH... I've been busy this month. And its just tonight that I've realized that I really had forgotten to do a lot of things. Well, there's only 3 days left and its CHRISTMAS. Still not done in buying gifts. I have no idea what to give to my mom, she seems to have everything. Gee!

Aside from the holiday rush, I've been getting to annoyed about this year end thingy at the work place because obviously, there's a lot of work to be done and need to be finished before december ends. ( so help me GOD! ) The pressure is on! And I'm getting to annoyed with it. I hope to finish it or else... or else...I will be working when everybody is already enjoying the warmth of their home during vacation. CURSE! So, I need to stay up late tonight.

Now what?!?!? I've been absent already in SIMBANG GABI... so I will never had the chance to make my wish come true as they say. SIGH...

PAST:

>Been partying a lot this month... Attended two company christmas party and a birthday. Been drinking a lot also. OOOOPPSSS! Bad Cheetah! Luckly, my tummy knows how to handle each situations. hehehe... Thank God for the LACTOBACILLUS! It helps me maintain everything under control, my control... But then I know that things will not gonna stay as good as it is. So, I have my back up just in case. LOL!

>Initial plan is to visit Metropolitan, but because of some sort of unintentional activities. Still haven't gone there. Also, haven't seen Thinman. I've cancelled my appointment with him last December 8. And up to now, I haven't resched it yet.

>The weather had been quite bad in the early weeks of December. But I love it. It sets my TWILIGHT mood. Just imagining I am in the rainy town of Forks... I love Edward... SIGH

>My monster had been ill. SIGH... He is sick. SIGH... Do I need to say more? SIGH...

FUTURE:

>More parties to come... a trip to Tagaytay maybe...

>Exhausted and Broke...SIGH... MESSED UP again...

September is Finally Over

This month is totally a BLAST... Whew! I never imagine that september is soon to be over.Finally! This month is really a roller coaster ride for me. I've had a couple of sleepless nights and weird dreams that totally made me insane. And evertime I looked at the mirror, I saw a very hideous girl hiding beyond a mask of loneliness and insanity. Crap! I'm sick! Inside and out. Physically, emotionally and even mentally I guess!

The first week of this month sucks! I have to lie to everybody that I'm still doing great but the truth is, I'm really not. Its hard for me to hide all the unnecessary stuff that I'm in by that time just for the sake of others. But then, after trying hard I finally broke down and realize that things will be easier if I already tell the truth. But the truth still haven't set me free yet...

The second week disturbed my conscious mind and soul after making an encounter with a monster. Yeah... a monster. I thought I was in a cloud nine but I finally realizes that I was about entering the gate of hell. I was caught by the monster's trap, but fortunately, I escaped. Maybe he forgot that I am still the evil girl he used to know. Evil and bad.

In the last few days of this month, finally I've come up with a decision. First, to stay focus on my plans. I should not rely on my emotions, myths or anything stupid. Second, maybe I should avoid trusting people too much. Third, I should need to avoid using my damn cellphone, it only triggers me to commit sinful acts. Fourth, there is no time for any romantic activities this time. Fifth, I just have to think in a positive way.

Gee! Its like I writing a new years resolution here. But just like what I've read, you should write all your thoughts as well as your plans and things you want to achieve because it really helps a lot. Well, I guess so.

September is finally over...Sigh...