Nothing Sensible

I was still trying to figure things out...

It really makes me laugh until now.

Maybe my imagination runs wild, or even wilder as time goes by,..

hehehe,.,

CHILLIN'

Recapped

Well, well… it’s new year and its 2009 already! What else can I say? Whew! Luckily, 2008 for me went well although of course some unnecessary circumstances are really unavoidable. So, I just wanna start things right this year. But before that I wanna have some sort of recapped of all the things that happened to me last year. Hmmm, I wish I can still recall everything.,.As in everything…hehehe…

January

Hmm, the very first month,.. Still jobless by that time. Nothing significant happened except for my grandma’s first year death anniversary. So, there’s some sort of family get together.

February

The love month… I think I was in Manila that time. I just got home on Valentines Day. Hmm, this is the month when I met monster, hehehe. It all started in a friendster message, exchange of digits, a simple chats and so on.

March

My grandfather died at the 10th of this month. It was quite a surprising one for all of us because it was least expected for him to be on that situation. We all thought that he will have a long life but then he passed away. Hmm, I guess nobody really knows what’s gonna be for all of us. Another even was my brother’s graduation. He’s done with the elementary life and yet there’s a long way ahead for him. Summer is beginning to make its way. What else for march? I think that’s all. That month is more of family events.

April

The heat is on and so the pressure to me. I’m taking off all the unnecessary things that might intrude my review. Gee! I was never really serious at it. Imagine, only a month left but still not yet done with all the review materials. Life is a gamble, and I’m on to take the risk. Yikes!

May

Kinda busy month. I spent most of my time in Manila. Had my exams on the first week. That was a curse! Took time to see Em. We went to Batangas to visit my father’s grave. It was his death anniversary on the 9th. I knew it was so silly of me to take Em there, but well, he should know my father even if he’s already dead. My birthday was on the third week of May. It was the loneliest birthday ever. Ofcourse, just like the other birthdays I had, it was raining… raining very hard as if the sky is showing it sympathy in me. I was very depressed at that very moment. I feel all alone and very much unfortunate with the kind of life that I took. Loser, failure…what else to describe my life.

June

Just like what they say, after every rain, a rainbow appears. I was hired as a researcher-writer in the mid of this month. I was kinda unaware of the job at first. And I have to take a lot of adjustments in the whole environment that I am into. I know I have a little passion about writing, ofcourse as a hobby but never imagine making it as a source of my income. I decided to take a step and began a journey wherein I was so unfamiliar with. Again, I gamble for the second time and I hope it’ll works.

July

Kinda enjoying my life… I’m done with the adjustments finally. Spending my time in Manila most of time because of work then going back home when its weekend. July was a pleasant month indeed for me. On the otherhand, my friend’s father died. She and her husband went back to the Philippines and we ( my college friends ) had a semi reunion at their home. Sadly, we were reunited at her father’s wake.

August

When August comes, nothing comes to mind except for my grandma’s birthday. And though she wasn’t with us anymore, we still celebrated her birthday. It was her 76th birthday, and we really missed her so much. One of my dear friend went to Dubai for work. Looks like everybody is leaving.

September

Just like the month of May or even worst. September really drives me nuts. Tragic month. Jobless again… Crap! Then I’ve learned something that wasn’t that good to know and it is something that I need to bear. It’s a roller coaster hell of ride! Sigh… Problems keep on coming my way. I was bothered and worried but at the same time there is someone who caught my attention and somehow keeps a smile on my face. All I did was to keep my faith and hope that everything will be fine again. So, I started everything again from scratch. My plans were all lined up. I’ll just crossed my fingers that everything will run out smoothly.

October

I am faced with a lot of changes. A new job again… a lot more better than the previous one that I had. October is the month of new beginnings for me. I’m a lot more focused on my career this time and I have to be serious with it. Finally, I think I found where I should belong. But of course, everything is not perfectly ok. Though I am doing well with my work, still missing something with my life. My relationship with Em won’t work out anymore. It was his birthday last 5th but I just texted him to send my greetings. What bothers me is my monster. Our communications were getting less. And things begin getting cold. Been planning to go to SG before the year ends, a peer invited me so. Well, it depends on the flow…

November

Still became busy with my work. It’s tiring yet no need to complain this time. I’m still caught with the movie Twilight. Hmm,..do I need to say more a bout this month.


December

A busy month. Yuletide Season… no doubt! My work all piled up, shopping a lot of stuffs, partying almost all night… Exhausting…yet fun. The weather suits my mood very well. It’s very cold. Well, because of the holidays, there’s also a lot of get togethers with friends and families. Luckily, I think I’ve ended my 2008 very good.

Monster Madness

While I was busy doing a lot of stuffs last night, ( cleaning clutters in my room, finishing the scrap book, etc.) My dear MONSTER buzz me in at ym so we had a little chit chat. Its been a while since the last time we've talked. Hmm, I think the last time is when he was sick, unfortunately... he's still not well...SIGH...

Well, I admit that I've missed him that much that's why I took my time off doing my chores. hehehe... The conversation went good and ofcourse, there are some arguments as well. It's part of it anyway. Then, the topic went over the monster doll that I had on my friendster account. He thought that it was mine and he says it was nice. Hmm, well I told him that its not really mine and I just grab the photo from the net. I know, I kinda disappoint him again with that though he doesn't admit it. Actually, I'm really planning to buy one but as of now, I can't find the perfect monster for myself. When I told him the story behind that,he asked me why not make my own. Duh!

We ended the conversation on the net after a couple of minutes. I told him that I miss having that kind of conversation. He asked me to call him once he was done.I would really love to call him, though I refuse and delivered a lot of excuses. I find a little awkward to call him while he was still in the streets but he told it ain't a big deal. I really want to call, but I just don't wanna intrude him in anything that he's into. I really don't know why I keep obeying everything that he says. He instructs me to call him 5mins after he logged out.

It's around 11:35pm I guess,.. when we finally talked over the phone. Hmm, no doubt, he is still sick. It was very obvious in his voice but a lot better than the last time. Gee! I really miss that MONSTER... I don't why there's a part of me that make me stick with him. And yet the other half really wants him out of my crooked mind. I had a great time talking to him last night though he's been coughing most of time. SIGH... He told me that he was reading one of Haruki's novel,.. the Norwegian Wood. I haven't read any of Haruki's books, but I've heard of The Wind Up Bird Chronicle. That MONSTER really amuses me everytime. And that what makes me hate myself more. His battery got low that's why the talk have ended without saying any goodbyes and goodnights. Well, anyway, that's how things should be. After all I should never make any wrong moves this time. I would rather keep things as it as and not to make stuffs complicated.

The good thing is, he gave me very good idea about the monster doll. I guess it would be a lot better if I will make my own. Sounds like I have a new project to make or another hell to deal with this coming year. Hehehe... Now I need to bring on the needles and threads as well as all the scraps...

Merikurisumasu

It's christmas...and it's so cold today...Maybe it's His way of pouring all His blessings. There are certain rain showers the whole day. The weather seems to be so good for me to write a lot of stuffs that happened today and it the past few days but I feel so lazy doing it. hmmm.... I think I'll do it some other time. I'll just have to enjoy the rest of my vacation. YAHOO!!!

A Wacky Xmas Pic with Issa

Coffee Mugs Galore-The Gifts

Hugo Boss Perfume and A.Carusso Hanky

with Dora and a kikay kit from my boss

Ang Makukulets na Cousins

Wake Me Up When DECEMBER Ends

PRESENT:

>Whew! Its been a while... who would have thought that 2008 will be ending so soon. SIGH... I've been busy this month. And its just tonight that I've realized that I really had forgotten to do a lot of things. Well, there's only 3 days left and its CHRISTMAS. Still not done in buying gifts. I have no idea what to give to my mom, she seems to have everything. Gee!

Aside from the holiday rush, I've been getting to annoyed about this year end thingy at the work place because obviously, there's a lot of work to be done and need to be finished before december ends. ( so help me GOD! ) The pressure is on! And I'm getting to annoyed with it. I hope to finish it or else... or else...I will be working when everybody is already enjoying the warmth of their home during vacation. CURSE! So, I need to stay up late tonight.

Now what?!?!? I've been absent already in SIMBANG GABI... so I will never had the chance to make my wish come true as they say. SIGH...

PAST:

>Been partying a lot this month... Attended two company christmas party and a birthday. Been drinking a lot also. OOOOPPSSS! Bad Cheetah! Luckly, my tummy knows how to handle each situations. hehehe... Thank God for the LACTOBACILLUS! It helps me maintain everything under control, my control... But then I know that things will not gonna stay as good as it is. So, I have my back up just in case. LOL!

>Initial plan is to visit Metropolitan, but because of some sort of unintentional activities. Still haven't gone there. Also, haven't seen Thinman. I've cancelled my appointment with him last December 8. And up to now, I haven't resched it yet.

>The weather had been quite bad in the early weeks of December. But I love it. It sets my TWILIGHT mood. Just imagining I am in the rainy town of Forks... I love Edward... SIGH

>My monster had been ill. SIGH... He is sick. SIGH... Do I need to say more? SIGH...

FUTURE:

>More parties to come... a trip to Tagaytay maybe...

>Exhausted and Broke...SIGH... MESSED UP again...

Semi Sumpong

Medyo sinumpong na naman ako ng katopakan ngayong gabi. hehehe...Wala na naman sa katinuan. Mahirap talaga kapag nababasa ng ulan e. Sa totoo lang marami pa akong gagawin na trabaho ngayon kaya lang medyo nasusuka na ako sa mga as built plans namin sa office. Plano ko sanang magsoundtrip muna ngayong gabi at matulog agad para relax,mag gain ng energy dahil halos LINGGO LANG ANG PAHINGA. E ang kaso, may sumpong ako ngayon kaya eto. Blog blog muna...

Nag-cancel na ako ng account sa TAGGED. Matagal ko na talagang gustong i-cancel ang account ko don kaya lang medyo nanghihinayang lang ako sa layout ko. Hehehe. Pero ngayon na-cancel ko na ng tuluyan. Naisip ko kasing napaka NONSENSE na nang account na yon. Isa pa, napaka NONSENSE din ng mga tao don. Wala na rin akong masyadong panahon sa mga ganung bagay.

Hay... Ano kaya gagawin ko? Matutulog na o mag dedesign pa? Kaya lang bukas sunday na, dapat may matapos man lang ako. SHIT! PAKING SHET!!! Hirap a? Naninibago ata ako a pagbabanat ng buto ngayon. Talagang seryoso 'tong napasok ko this time. Pero no choice, darating at darating na kailangan ko talagang ma-experience ang ganitong bagay dahil ito ang REALITY ng buhay ko.

Hay... Sana mapanuod ko ang twilight. Pero sino naman ang kasama ko? Imposible na si Pako dahil drawing yun at pa yun sa pang chichix nya ngayon. Si Empot, mas lalong imposible dahil mahirap pa yun sa daga. Napakamalas ko naman pag dating sa ganitong pagkakataon.

gradual

I’ve been facing a lot of changes in my life right now. And because of that, I’m still at the period wherein I need to do a lot of adjustments. Everything seems to turn out right. I guess… I hope… In the past few days, I suddenly felt like giving up (again) * LOSER/EMO MODE… But then I finally regain my hope back in my shoe again and decided to take another step forward. Well, this is the life that I chose. I have to deal with it and I have to PROVE something. My current job really making me exhausted but I’m kinda starting to appreciate every part of it. I’m learning a lot of things on the people I’ve meet every day and even on the task that is being assigned on me. I hope to finish those just in time. Anyway the only thing that bothers me now is my health. I can sense that it would be the only thing that will HINDER me to do things.