ang unang kwento

Kung anong sarap ng buhay ko nung highschool, sya namang kabaligtaran ng buhay ko nung college. Unang buwan pa lang, pakiramdam ko mamamatay na ako. Para kasing napakahirap ng lahat noon... yung course na kinuha ko, ang mga tao sa paligid ko, ang buhay na meron ako.Parang halos lahat na ata. Hindi ko akalain na matatapos ko rin lahat ng yon.
Sa totoo lang hindi ko gusto ang course na kinuha ko. Mas gusto ko ang Architecture o kaya mag Fine Arts. Dun naman talaga ang linya ko, kahit nung bata pa ko. Hindi ko rin gusto ang school na pinasukan ko. Gusto ko kasi sa ibang lugar sana. Malayo sa amin. Kaya lang noong mga panahong yon, medyo hindi maganda ihip ng hangin. Kaya yon, dun ako napunta. Doon ako bumagsak.

Labag man sa kalooban ko ang mag aral dun, wala akong magagawa. Badtrip pa ang uniform nila. Natatandaan ko nung highshool ako sinumpa ko ata na hinding hindi magsusuot ng uniform na yun. Pero wala rin... Darating pala ang panahon na isusuot ko yon sa loob ng limang taon!!! Sinumpa ko rin ang unang araw ng klase. Hindi ko maisip kung paano pakisamahan ang mga tao sa paligid ko. Parehong catholic school kasi ang pinasukan ko nung elementary at highshool. Kaya medyo iba ang "mundo" sa bago kong school.

Unang araw, walang klase! Badtrip! Isa ko pang problema ang pag uwi. Dahil hindi ako masyadong marunong magcommute. Dahil may mga service naman kami mula elementary at highschool. Kakaunin at ihahatid ka. Kahit make-up classes pa yon, may service pa din. Kaya natatandaan ko nun, sinusundo pa ako ng tito ko kapag hanggang 8pm ang klase ko.
Iba kapag engineering ang kinuha mong course. Sabi nga nila kapag daw engineering graduate ang kakwentuhan mo, wag mong itanong kung meron syang singko. Dapat daw ang tanong e kung ilan ang singko meron sya. Habang tumatagal nadala na rin ako ng agos. Tinanong ako ng nanay ko kung gusto ko pang mag-shift noon at lumipat ng school after ng 1st sem. Pero pinili kong ituloy at tapusin na rin yung nasimulan ko. Ayoko kasi ng palipat at pabago-bago. Which is naisip ko ngayon na medyo sumablay din ako sa decision kong yon dati. E wala na e, graduate na ko!

Naging maganda naman ang takbo ng “career” ko noon. (naks!) Syempre, hindi naman ako pabayang estudyante. Kahit mahirap, nag aaral ako. Naging kabarkada ko pa nun masisipag din mag aral kaya napadamay na rin ako. Hehehe. First time ko nga nung magpuyat ng hanggang madaling araw at makaranas ng gutom. Dahil na rin sa dami ng mga ginagawa lalo na kapag nagkasabay sabay ang mga project at exam. Lahat na ata ng first time ko na-experience ko nung college except lang sa … hehehe yun nay un! First time kong makatulog sa mesa, wag magtanghalian o hapunan, maglakad na parang walang katapusan, kumuha ng exam at quiz na walang maisagot

Ang isa sa pinaka di ko makakalimutan non, paskong pasko e nag dradrawing pa ko. Hindi pa kasi tapos ang plano na kailangan mai-submit pagpasok after ng xmas vacation. ( xmas vacation? E halos wala rin naman..) Inabot pa nga ata ako ng new year noon. Ilang minuto na lang putukan na. Shit! Hindi pa din tapos! Nag bagong taon na tambak ang trabaho ko sa table noon. Minsan nga nappapagalitan na ako ng lola ko, sya kasi kasama ko sa kwarto. E medyo messy tapos tuwing magigising sya sa madaling araw gising pa din ako. Ganon talaga e. Lamay palagi. Hindi ko naman magawa sa umaga or nang mas maaga dahil wala pa ako sa mood nun.

Mas mahirap yun dahil lalong natagal ang trabaho dahil dadami lang ang mali mo at uulit ka lang ng uulit. Sayang ang papel, tinta ng ballpen pati pagod mo at oras.
Sa limang taon, umikot ang buhay ko sa calcu, libro, at cell phone. Hehehe. Hindi talaga ako ma-gimik . Kaya after school bahay lang talaga agad ako. Unang una, hindi ako mahilig lumabas, barkada ko ganun din. Pangalawa, parang wala akong time nun. Pangatlo, di talaga ako pede ng ginagabi pag uwi, nag aalala agad ang lola ko. E ayoko namang iisipin nya pa ko. Makakasam yun para sa kanya. Pang apat, mabait lang talaga akong bata. Walang kokontra!!!
To be continued……

from others viewpoint

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right person, we will know how to be really grateful for the gift. When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times, we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had. It's true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back! Don't expect love in return, just wait for it to grow in their heart, but if it doesn't, be content, it grew in yours. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth, even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile, because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile. There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them forever and ever!

Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go, be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do. May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy. Always put yourself in other's shoes, if you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the other person too.


The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything, they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches. When you were born, you were crying, and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.

HEART OF SWORD

When I’m alone, tomorrow feels far away
And I must go over still into the darkness of the dawn
If I try to play it straight, it will no doubt fail
And tonight it won’t go well between us again
You can’t see all of my hard efforts,
Because it only result is that it make no sense
It really is a “tight rope”
More effort, more damage – this is my daily life
Taking a cynical attitude may give me some comfort
Hiding myself, heated and irritated
Living only a short time

When I’m alone, tomorrow feels far away
And I must go over still into the darkness of the dawn
If I let my emotions free
My dreams will once again will not go well
I think the balance sheet of my life is ended
You don’t know you change logic at your will
I hurt myself because of you, over and over
But my love didn’t go away…. It kept coming back

The toughness gained from my damage is unbelievable
I won’t be able to sleep at all tonight either
However many times it’s repeated
It revives again and again…. Because its love
You can’t blame my emotion,
Because you should know it will never fade away
And even though I’m in the darkness of the dawn
I have to go
I don’t care about “ bad affinity”
Even if our love is not doing well
Nevertheless we have deep ties

Eto ang teamsong ng paborito kong anime... as in all time favorite ko. Syempre, walang iba kundi SAMURAI X...