Day 79 - May 31,2009
Well, everything has to end and so are my summer misadventures. I also see to it that every summer should become remarkable in their respective aspect. I’m glad I had one again this year though I haven’t gone through a lot of out of towns. This summer is really special…as I keep reminiscing good memories from it. Hmmm… cant deny the fact that rainy season landed ( though storms were already anticipated in the early months ) . Tomorrow, the first day of the 6th month of the year. School days again…actually I’m planning to take some short courses again,.some kind of enhancements that I probably need. You know? Learning is a non stop process. And I am very much willing to learn new things. Hmm,. I wish the ran will shower me again with blessings…New Season… New stories… New chapter… New journey… Here comes the rain… Love it!
Day 76 - May 28,2009
And just because I cannot keep my mouth shut… again… I made a mess! Well, not so alarming this time and its kinda cute. Well, just this afternoon, I already blurted out what I really feel towards N. Yeah… I made a this innocent confession to him… It was awful feeling at first, and my stomach starts getting bubbly but I manage to keep everything sailing smoothly. And when its done.,. I feel relieved. I admire him more on how he handles my insanity. He’s very much matured and open-minded, still pays respect on our friendship and never took advantage on it. He really is the man! OMG! I think I am really falling for him. Oh no! What am I gonna do?
DAY 72 - May 24,2009
I’ve waited so much for this day to come. I extremely become as excited as I counted the hours towards the 24th of this month. Then, I even encountered a slight problem just a few days before. Gee?! But then I’ve tried to settled everything and finally I’ve met N in person. The reaction??!?! He was totally a different person. It may sound confusing but trust me,.. He is way too different from the person I used to chat with and talked over the phone for the past 472 days… I felt a sudden commotion in the entire conversation that we had. It was too awkward for me to act that way, but the hell! I can’t blame myself, he is just a few inches away in my face and I keep reminding myself that this is reality. The gameplan was followed though there are slight changes.
1. Close Encounter.
2. Bought some snacks.
3. See a movie ( Angels and Demons )
4. He got me a teddy from Bear Cuddler. Atlast! After a long wait…
5. Had a few walk… he bought his stuffs.
6. Agreed to munch some slice of pizza.
7. Had a short talk.
8. Walk again,..some window shop.
9. I handed him a simple token before we’ve parted our ways at the train station.
It was a great day being with him yet there are still a lot of things that confuses me about who he really was. I thought those questions will be answered by the time I’ve met him but I was wrong. Goodness! Not expecting that things will be more complicated for me. Well, I guess, I should learn how to handle this one.
DAY 69 - May 21, 2009
The ray of sunlight is starting to sneak in my room and its slowly hurting my eye. I grab my pillow to hide my face suddenly I heard this disturbing noise. It’s raining… Again, some sort of a summer rain is gently pouring in. Kinda weird thing to start my day 3 days after the Atomic Number 47 but I guess I have to be used to it as well as being used to the odd changes of the climate.
DAY 67 - May 19, 2009
Everything is set for the big event on Sunday. The only thing that’s still hanging is my mom’s permission. I’m dying to see him and be with him and I would really ask my mom to let me go out with him. It was as early as 6 am when he woke me up with a text message asking me what time I’ll get there on Sunday. I just smiled reading his message and wonder why this guy is very much serious with every detail of our so-called date. Inside, it really made me feel ok. I became used to this scenario: waking up at 6am reading his texts and having a short chat with him before he starts to work. He’s been my alarm clock for couple of months now, its quite annoying how he used to wake me up but then somehow his crappyness always leave a smile in my face and makes my entire day. I like him. I really do. I know this thing would not be forever but still I am glad that I have him now.
*there is this girl in his workplace that really looks like me. He told me that this morning and I find the girl very interesting. I hardly found someone who really looks like me. That’s why I am asking him every detail about the girl and the things that we had in common. He says…” she has long hair but the face is very much the same as you as well as the body build,.skinny. I don’t know her attitude but from the way she dresses, I guess kinda more like you. It was just rightnow that I’ve noticed that she looks like you that’s why I am trying to pretend that it was you.”
DAY 65 - May 17, 2009
Well, 25 years I ago... a nice baby girl was born. Hehehe,. couldnt believe I am already 25. Yikes! I am old! People around me keeps on reminding me that I should be married sooner or later for my age would no longer be visible in the calendar. The Hell! Age is just number...and I never felt any changes...I still the same ol' me...Just prettier I guess,.ehem... Hmmm...25 years on earth and a lot of things to works on. I just feel thankful that I've conquered such difficulties in the past and hope that I will still be able to beat the odds as I continue my journey. I am thinking rightnow to write a short story about the past 25 years of my life. Isnt it cool? hehehehe,. I hope time would allow me... Cheers! Happy Birthday to me!
DAY 63 - May 15, 2009
I have receive my last paycheck,.. or I should say the last drop of penny I will be savoring til I get a new job. Money seems to be so powerful, especially today. I wanna buy everything that captures my senses but I know my life wouldn’t be easy as days go by… I have to save something for myself for I am not aware of what the future brings. Late in the afternoon, I went to a thrift shop to browse some good books. With some sort of luck, I found a children’s book that I’ve been looking for, it’s the Adventure of Raggedy Ann and Andy. The characters have been part of my childhood. My sister and I have been watching the TV series then. I love rug dolls but I don’t even own one. When I was a kid, I remember when I confronted my dad and ask him why he is giving us money instead of toys and other stuffs. He said, why do you want me to give that I’m giving generous amount of money instead? I said I wanted a toy wrap in colorful papers and not money. Then he said, “I am not good in choosing gifts like toys...what if I chose to give you a rag doll?” “Then it would be fine” I said, “Anything form you will do..”
DAY 59 - May 11, 2009
Went to Makati after lunch to sort some things out,.I’m glad it never rained there but the dark sky seems to admonish a heavy one. I miss going out all by myself,. having a bus ride… seeing people on the street, it somehow changes my mood. I’ve been stressed out this pass few weeks and currently in a complex situation. I hope this one will end soon.
DAY 56 - May 8, 2009
Atlast! I’m done reading After Dark by Haruki. Again, just like the other stuffs that I’ve read, I’m also quite disappointed in the end. Havent read a story that grasps me up to the last drop. What I’m trying to figure out is that the endings didn’t satisfy me that much.
DAY 55 - May 7, 2009
I hate when people are telling you that they are sad or depressed but then cannot open up with you. Its just like they are making you crave for something that you wouldn’t really have. I’m having a hard time digging up with this particular guy. I don’t know what he wants, I don’t know what’s really going on inside his mind… He’s freaking me out.
DAY 53 - May 5, 2009
As early as I could, I woke up to help my mom bathe the 5 puppies and their mother. Their vaccination is scheduled today at 8:30 in the morning. After their vaccination,,, they can no longer take a bath for a week. The puppies were very much behave, as well as their mom. It was just Creamy who freaked out. We've been very much busy with these dogs. And its really worth it.
DAY 52 - May 4, 2009
My mom told us that we need to abandon the cats’ right way. She thinks our cat is pregnant again, after giving birth to 4 kittens a couple of weeks ago. She also told us that she cant stand the unpleasant smell of a cats poops… I understand her… actually she really doesn’t want animals in the first place. And I somehow appreciated how she took care of our pets right now. We have bunches of animals in our house. Aside from the newly birth kittens, we also have 5 puppies. It was such a very huge responsibility to deal with animals. And I salute my mom for that. I know, she also felt sad while abandoning the kittens in the empty lot. She even brought with them their food.
DAY 50 - May 2, 2009
The world stops when PACMAN has a fight. No doubt… Again he just proved himself that he’s the greatest fighter of this time. Couldn’t imagine that even Hollywood superstars are very much vowed to him. ASTIG di ba?
My dominant hand suffers mild injury since this weekend. And as a result, I’ve been having hard doing stuffs. My craft depends obviously on my hands, especially my right one, since it is the dominant one. My grip isn’t that good and there’s such an intense pain whenever I grab the computer’s mouse. Texting is torturing me a lot. I first encounter a severe pain in my right shoulder blade and throughout my entire right arm down to my hands. It’s starting to get numb and quite freaking me out. But as day passes by, my wrist and my hand continues to endure a lot of pain. I’ve been thinking maybe I really need to rest them though I am not abusing my hands with my work. I think some of the ligaments are not in condition. I refuse to see a doctor. Just pampering my hands with some ointments and rest it as much as possible.
DAY45 - April 27, 2009
I’m not that sure if I will still continue doing my 100 days of summer list… It seems that the heat of the sun is slowly bidding goodbye to us. The raining season is fast approaching,. Some concluded that it’s the effect of the climate change. Cant believe it! Its been raining hard this April. As I can remember, when we were still kids, we are always waiting for the first rain of May for the old people believes that it’s some sort of a miracle and it could heal several ailments. We used to take a bath in the first May showers…
DAY43 - April 25, 2009
Spend our lunch at my aunt’s farm and there I meet this two stray dogs… Ofcourse, I took the opportunity to took their pictures. Just had a separate entry of the whole story...
DAY 41 - April 23, 2009
Always expect the unexpected. My dear monster came back… awwwww… As if nothing happened…well, I stopped taking things too seriously this time. He is crazy, I must accept how different he really was. Anyway, I’m glad he’s back even if his excuse was quite annoying. I miss N so much.
DAY 39 - April 21, 2009
Send an email to my dear monster for the second time after what happened. I’m expecting any replies as usual, I just wanna stay the same way as I used to be on him. As if nothings really changed within what we have.
DAY 38 - April 20, 2009
I refuse to go to Alabang today. I’m currently not in the mood of being so unwell. Plus the weather it is raining…
DAY 36 - April 18, 2009
Our cat gave birth to four cute little kittens… awwwwwwww! How nice! Now we already have 6 dogs, 5 cats and 2 kois… and my mom is going to kill us as soon as possible,.hehehe
DAY 33 - April 15, 2009
Just beat the red light! Wahahahaha! Already submitted the proposed design for the resort. After gathering all the knowledge that I have, and two days of sleepless nights... Finally! And I'm keeping my fingers cross! Goodluck sa kin! LOL!
DAY 30 - April 12, 2009
I really don’t have any idea how to create this crap! I’m starting to have a serious head injury. I think I’m starting to bleed. My brain is being tortured that much by excessive thinking. LOL! I think, it would be better if I will start this one tomorrow rather than to force myself today. I cannot perceive any concept now.
DAY 29 - April 11, 2009
Black Saturday but I have a serious thing to work on. Crap! Watta a holy week! I thought the project only requires me to provide a SDP – Site Development Plan but… BUT I was demanded to provide a projected design for a “resort” as a part of a proposal. Holy Cow! Me? Designing a resort?!?! This thing is a shit! I even haven’t created a design for a residential house, and they will ask me to this?! Crap! Discussions had been made… fingers had been pointed… money had been paid…So help me GOD…
DAY 28 - April 10, 2009
This is the day wherein all I wanted to do is lie down in bed and sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepppp… Just like John Mayer’s song…”sleep all day, sleep all day…” I don’t know if I’m still tired of what I did yesterday, but I just woke up to eat breakfast then again I’m back to bed. Good thing is mom doesn’t mind me this time. I remember every time I tried to open my eyes, it just feel so heavy then everything turns black again.
DAY 27 - April 9, 2009
Road trip somewhere in Quezon Province. Had a nice chat with Em later in the afternoon til bedtime. I sore my thumb texting, I haven’t done it for a long time. Everything is in smoooooooooth sailing between the two us. Well, I can tell that bit by bit, my shattered being is slowly reconstructed with the help of the good souls behind. Kinda regret the time I ignore them. But I think is never too late to tell them how much they mean to me and how much they help get through this.
DAY 26 - April 8, 2009
Way of the Cross at Liliw,Laguna. Receive good news later in the afternoon which gives me a new hope to begin my life with. At midnight…had a chat with an old friend. I haven’t talked to her since we had that senseless misunderstood a couple of years ago. I admit, I kinda lost her due to my temporary insanity that time and obviously, it also loosen our friendship. We may have been separated for quite sometime, we’ve faced our own issues without each other. I really feel sorry for that that’s why I’m glad we’re bound to each other again. To be honest, I feel awkward talking to her once again at first. But as the conversation goes on, you can tell that there is something that really connects you and that is really what a good friendship is.
DAY 25 - April 7, 2009
A silly song caught my attention… now I am suffering from last song syndrome…
DAY 22 - April 4, 2009
Still, most of the things are not ok. I’m trying to cope up with the situation I am into right now. Whew! It is really hard to deal with this time. Especially if the person whom I’ve thought will save me is the same person that causes this entire downfall. In this extreme solitary that I am engaging in the past few days, quit good to know I ain’t drop any tear. Can’t exactly explain why, maybe because my emotional perception is getting numb.
DAY 20 - April 2, 2009
You can never really tell how things will be. And there’s nothing you can do but to accept each consequences. There were no issues at all…we were not committed to claim each other in the first place. There were no obligations to deal with. There were no rules to be followed. So how can this thing be so hard for me? How can this stupidity ruin myself and shattered me apart into pieces?
DAY 17 - March 30, 2009
Ok…I decided to keep my hands off from that guy starting tonight. It’s too painful but well, he started it, I guess I have to end it up too also.
DAY 12 - March 25, 2009
Because I couldn’t just sit here and wait… I drop an email to him as if things weren’t that
complicated between the two of us. I know, he wont send any reply but
I guess it will somehow start the flame burning again.
DAY 7 - March 20, 2009
Had a conversation with the girls… they have given their opinion regarding on what to do at this very sullen moment of my life. Its really nice to have companions like them. Ofcourse, we argued on a lot of things but then in the end they’re the one who will be with you till dawn. I miss them so much. Cant wait to be with them again.
DAY 1 - March 14, 2009
Time to chill! Mom was off to Pangasinan, so me and my bro was both in the drivers seat…hehehe…We’ve savored the absence of my mom’s presence for the whole 24 hours. Hmm… well, just stayed at home… in my room… in my bed… I think I’ve been lying on it the whole day. LOL! My summer vacation officially starts now!
