Boredom

I'm bored...and as a result, I end up doing some senseless things.

This is my deathnote... hehe,.. the hidden codes are written here. Actually, I used to write more still on paper and pen rather than in word format. Huh! I'm kinda an old fashioned earthling. It contains my poems, random stories, quotes, point of views,. in other words.,. stupidities,. hehehe,.. I find time to write a lot of things when I am like this. Words are just swimming in my head. It's a great way to kill my boredom.

Yesterday is hell. Waking up with this kind of scene is very awful for me. I really hate lizards. They make me sick. I cringed getting up in bed. I was so nervous while taking its photo. What the hell? Making love early in morning...

Sometimes the gloomy mood triggers the artistic side of me. By then I got to create something from my outrageous mind set. A splash of colors and some set of trash equals... my junk art!

Well, I know I have to set my mind into this thing. But even though I am bored and I got nothing else to do, I still can't find myself having a glance of this book. Crap! Curse me for being lazy.

Eating good food is such a great pleasure. My mom's pancit guisado is the best for me. And I cannot eat that without rice. I dunno why? Carbs, carbs, carbs...LOL...

But still I am bored... sigh...

Feriarific Wednesday

Lumalakas na ang ulan, pati na rin ang hangin. Pero para sa akin, ok lang kahit signal no.2 pa ang bagyong tinatawag nilang si Feria. Masaya lang ako ngayon,..hmm, bakit?!? Kasi... saka ko na ikukwento. Hahaha,.. Wag lang sana magbrown out. Naku po! 'Wag naman muna. Importante ang bawat segundo na makausp ko siya,. Ayokong may nasasayang na oras dahil hindi ko alam kung kelan uli ito mauulit.

Astig naman!

Dahil sa 30th anniversary ng Gundam next month, July 2009. As a tribute sa astig na robot ng mga hapones, gumawa sila ng lifesize replica nito. Astig diba? Wow! Grabe talaga! Natanga ako ng malaman ko 'to, Sana makita ko 'to sa personal. Wish ko lang makapunta ako ng Japan. Hay.... Masyadong maraming magagandang bagay ang meron sa bansa nila na at sobrang tumutulo na ang laway ko sa inggit. Really cravin' that much! Whew! By the way, the said Gundam RX-78-2 is located at Shiokaze Park, Odaiba, Tokyo, Japan.

All photos courtesy of Sushi Monster

Emo Ako Sa Gabing Ito-Sequel

Wala pa ring pinagkaiba ito sa nakaraang gabi. Minsan parang gusto ko nang maniwala sa sumpa. Hay... Sabi nila wag daw mag-isip ng negative. E pucha namang buhay 'to! Paanong hindi ka naman mawawalan ng pag-asa. Paano namang makakapag-isip ka pa ng maganda. Kung wala na sayo ang lahat. Para kang bato, nag-iisa,.. umulan man o umaaraw. Talagang pagod na ko. Kahit anung oras, pede na kong mawala sa mundong 'to.

Sana mamamatay akong nakangiti...

Emo Ako Sa Gabing Ito

Nagtataka ako kung ano ba talaga ang silbi ko sa mundo at nabuhay pa ko. Katulad ngayon,. sa panahong katulad ngayon... pakiramdam ko e ako ang pinakawalang kakwenta kwentang tao. Ano ba pakinabang ko? Wala namang something unsual sa akin. Napaka-common ko nga. Lahat ng meron ako,. meron din ang iba., mas higit pa nga. Kung ano ang kaya ko,. kaya rin ng iba., mas magaling pa nga. So, ano pa at nananatili pa kong humihinga dito sa ibabaw ng lupa?

Wala naman akong masyadong kaibigan. Konti lang talaga yung tinuturing kong malapit sa aki at mapapagkatiwalaan ko. Maliit lang din ang pamilya namin. Kung iisipin ko nga e, nanay ko lang ang sobrang malulungkot kung sakaling mawala ako. Wala namang ibang nagpapahalaga sa akin. Wala rin namang ibang nag-aalala. Sa totoo lang,. napapagod na talaga ako. Sabihin nyo nang stress lang 'to at masyado na akong nahahawa sa mga emo. Pero, hindi ko talaga makita ang bagay na mag papasaya sa akin. Hindi ko mahanap ang satisfaction sa buhay ko. Hindi ko nararamdaman ang completeness ng pakatao ko.

Ni hindi ko nga alam kung ano yun e. Pano ko mahahanap? Hindi ko nga alam kung saang direksyon ba ako dapat magpunta. Ni hindi nga ako makapagdesisyon ng tama.

Bakit ba kasi nabuhay pa ko? E kulang na lang naman e dumikit ako sa kisame. Wala akong patutunguhan. Wala akong kinalalagyan.

Araw araw, patuloy na umiikot ang mundo. Araw araw, iisang eksena lang ang nangayayari. Paulit-ulit lang. Nakakasawa talaga. Kahit anong gawin ko para mabago ang lahat, wala pa rin. Nauuwi pa rin sa wala ang lahat. Bumabalik sa dati. Napapako ako sa isang sitwasyong walang pinagkaiba sa mga nakaraan.

Nagsasawa na kong mabuhay. Ano ba talaga ang meron sa kabilang buhay? Baka naman pede na ko don. Ayoko na kasi dito. Hindi ako masaya. Nahihiarapan na akong intindihin ang mga bagay bagay kahit na anung pilit kong unawin ang mga ito.

Nauubusan na ako ng matitinong bagay na dapat isipin. Nilalamon na ko ng sobrang kalungkutan dahil sa mga kabiguan ko sa buhay. Wala akong silbi. Hindi na dapat mabuhay. Ayoko nang makita ang sikat ng araw. Ayoko nang magising pag tulog ko ngayon. Gusto ko na talagang magpahinga. Masyado na akong nasasaktan. Sa sobrang hirap, unti-unti na akong namamanhid. Nawawalan na ako ng pakiramdam. Para na rin naman akong patay.

Sinusulat ko ang lahat ng ito. Mabawasan man lang sana ang nararamdaman ko. Hindi talaga ako matapang. Madali talaga akong sumuko. Ayoko na talaga. Nagsasawa na ako at napapagod na. Hindi ako masaya.

Ang Gusto Ko Lamang Sa Buhay Ay...

MASUNOD ANG GUSTO KO!










TINOTOPAK AKO!










TULUNGAN NYO KO!









PARANG AWA NYO NA!!!










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I'm so into him...

I like Brandon Boyd. He is not your typical kind of guy, or I should say a boy-next-door type. (Which I usually don't get attracted with)I really prefer the bad boy image type of guy. Last night, I saw the video of Black Heart Inertia.,Which is the latest from the band. They will be releasing a 2disk compilation album this June called Monuments and Melodies and the said track is included there. I've notice he had his hair cut already and it makes him look younger and more attractive. But beyond the good looks that he had, what captured my attention the most is how he perceive things around him. It just amazes me. I loved him since 1999 during the "stellar" days.

He is an artist by day,..and performs at night in a band called Incubus.

Oh! and did I mention that He is also HOT!

Looking forward to buy his book which I think will really gave me a hard time.And as well get a copy of their latest album. I hope there's another version of him existing beyond my reach...Sigh...

Last Song Syndrome

I am addicted to the song but I'm referring to the Seether version because I prefer that one better than the original ( Wham Version ). The lyrics kinda hit me: THOUGH ITS EASY TO PRETEND, I KNOW YOU'RE NOT A FOOL... and the melody keeps on playing inside my head. I'm grateful to the scandal because I've learn to appreciate this song. hehehe...




Careless Whisper

Time can never mend
The careless whispers of a good friend
To the heart and mind
Ignorance is kind
And there's no comfort in the truth
Pain is all you'll find
I'm never gonna dance again
Cause guilty feet have got no rhythm
Though it's easy to pretend
I know you're not a fool
I should have known better than to cheat a friend
And waste the chance that I'd been given
So I'm never gonna dance again
The way I danced with you

I feel so unsure

As I take yout hand And lead you to the dance floor

As the music dies, something in your eyes

Calls to mind a silver screen and all those sad goodbyes

I'm never gonna dance again

Cause this guilty feet have got no rhythm

Though it's easy to pretend

I know you're not a fool

I should have known better than to cheat a friend

And waste the chance that I'd been given

So I'm never gonna dance again

The way I dance with you
Tonight the music seems so loud
I wish that we could lose the crowd
Maybe it's better this way
We'd hurt each other with the things we want to say
We could have been so good together
We could have lived this dance forever
But now who's gonna dance with me?
Please stay
I'm never gonna dance again
Cause guilty feet have got no rhythm
Though it's easy to pretend
I know you're not a fool
I should have known better than to cheat a friend
And waste the chance that I'd been given
So I'm never gonna dance again
The way I danced with you

Over and Over

How come that I am not aware that such band exist? Crap! And they even have a very great songs...




You better crawl on your knees
The next time you say that you love me
Fall on your knees, 'cause this time I won't be so kind
Can't you see that this is life and life is killing me
Is it yours? is it mine?
Our sky fell down tonight, to wash away our pain

Tell me, over and over and over and over and over again
It never was time for us, it never was time to let me in
Show me, over and over and over and over and over again
It never was time for us, it never was time to let me in
You better see how evil you can be
When you see my evil smile
It's the one that you'll remember when I am not so kind
Can't you see that this is death and death is saving me
I say burn all your bridges while you still have control of the flame
I know it's hard but you...

Tell me, over and over and over and over and over again
It never was time for us, it never was time to let me in
Show me, over and over and over and over and over again
It never was time for us, it never was time to let me in
You've hardened to the point
You're hard and to the point

Tell me, over and over and over and over and over again
It never was time for us, it never was time to let me in
(hardened to the point)
Show me, over and over and over and over and over again
(hard and to the point)
It never was time for us, it never was time to let me in

Trend...

Nowadays... everybody is talking about scandals..the sex video thingy that became a blockbuster hit. On the otherhand,also part of the trend today is these two awesome fictional creatures ever made in movie history. So, I posted this video I got from youtube which I think summarizes it all. Well, nice soundtrack too... Enjoy!Oh,lala...Sizzlin' Hot! hehehe

And Let the Countdown Begin...