Blank and Black

Things are not going too good these days. It happened again. Well, I guess that was really my curse and I had to learn how to deal with it. I’m running out of time and again, as usual… everything messed up. My life… I hate it right now. My damn life…Whew! Everything turns black…

I still hear his words. It lingers. It remains. If only he knew the things that I’ve been through, then he’ll understand. The thing is… I had no strength to tell him. I don’t wanna explain things in the first place. He starts to hate me by now, but there’s nothing I can do but to accept the fact that I need to exert a lot of effort to bring back what we had before. I am weak… He doesn’t want me to be that way…But no matter how hard I fought, still can’t win…

The darkness starts to capture every bit of me again. And because I have nothing to turn to, and because I am all alone again, and because I am numb… My soul begins to obey all the sinful acts that a demon says…

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I Miss My Monster...

After all...

I've realized that he's still my dear monster...

I miss him so much...

and

I wish him back...

My Little Pups

In the past two weeks, I’ve been busy taking pictures of our new puppies. It’s just like we really had a new siblings at home, my mom though she was never really into animals, had been spending a lot of effort with this one this one. She even told me, how adorable the five puppies were and it really took a lot of her time everyday.

We have captured each significant moments of those puppies. From the day the were born, fed, crawl and the day they opened their eyes. Now, they were walking and drinking milk on their own. They have already stolen our hearts but sadly, ( yeah, there’s a sad part as always ). Mom said that we have to gave away the three puppies because it would be very hard for us to accommodate five puppies,.. not to mention their mother and the cat that we also have which I guess is also pregnant by this time. ( Yikes! Another babies on the way! ) and the two Kois.

Well, that was too much responsibility to take. But.. sigh.. I already love the puppies. We’re really having a hard time whom to give and to whom they will be given. As much as possible, they should be in the good hands and I will assure that.

Today, they had their first walk on the grass. They love the greens,..they were so very playful. I guess they were freshen up a bit with the grass texture compare to rugs on their house so most of them took a nice nap. Hmm,.. Nice cute puppies! Really love them…

My Dear New Chucks

“You have to buy a good pair of shoes because they’re the one who will take you in beautiful places.” - ANOM


With all the frustrations and disappointments I have this weekend, I seek some idea to somehow comfort and cure me. Yesterday, I ask my mom if we can go to mall and unwind a bit. Well, girls just wanna have fun and speaking of FUN for is none other than to SHOPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP! Hehehehe… My mom is my ultimate shopping buddy. Hmmm…so we dig in first with a light lunch at KFC,.grab a munch of the KFC melts and voila! SHOP! SHOP! SHOP!

I bought a new sneakers. Yeah! Sneakers again, one of Converse limited edition. And I it was a best buy. They’re on sale right now. I bought the periwinkle one with the two shoe laces on it. Love it! Hmmm… Love it really! Time to take my moss green over stressed one to rest. Hehehe…Actually, my mom ask me to bought a new ladies shoes for the office, but I told her that the black one that I use is still good (which I bought two weeks ago). Still have some good shoes for work. But I really have a fetish for nice sneakers since I was a kid and I prefer wearing them than those doll shoes and other ladies shoes that I have. They fit me really good and it more of me. It is more of my character; well I guess no doubt about it. High heels shoes kill me and I am not the super feminine type of a woman though.

A new shoe sets me on a good mood again. And though I wasn’t able to catch the Eheads Concert, Converse on the otherhand represents those guys. Hmm, well I was thinking right now to start collecting good sneakers. Nonetheless, I think I have to cut some unnecessary expense from now on.

I Heart Francis M

I was still at the office when I heard the news that the famous rapper already passed by. I am not really an avid fan of Francis M but I grew listening to his music and his passion for his craft really turn my head around. That guy is really amazing. He is so gifted with a lot of talent. His music really digs in to you whenever you heard it anywhere. And he never stops doing things to improve and learn more as time goes by.

Actually, when I confirmed the news in the internet, the first thing that hits my mind was, “ what about the Eheads Concert?” He is a very dear friend of the band’s front man Ely Buendia. And he was supposed to be the “the surprise thingy” on the event. So, sad… (sigh)

If I remember it right, the movie Kamada from Raymond Red is one of the first indie television feature that I’ve seen. Francis M plays the main character and I think I’ve seen it for about 3-4 times already.Last year,I also wrote a blog article about this man when rumors starts spreading that he was diagnosed with cancer. Writing that article made me search a couple of facts about him and I really learned something from that.It somehow inspires me and from then on I followed every episode of his "happy battle".

“Don’t let anything stop you from doing what you want, even your fears.” This was the few lines that once caught my attention in one of his interviews when he was already diagnosed with AML. Though his disease is really something serious to deal with, you
can still see on his aura the optimism and eagerness to live.

I envied his strength and his intelligence. He pictures the real image of a FREEMAN,..not afraid of anything and always willing to take new challenges in life. A new journey is now heading his way now. Maybe it’s time to have a glint of hip hop rap thingy up there. Von Voyage!

PEACE MAN!

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